same old stuff

After complaining about the rain last time, I did manage to get one tree planted, and fill in one of the holes that I dug in error. The dirt was workable, but still fairly wet which made things difficult and slow. Now it's raining again, and my back yard is a mud pit, and the other five tree holes are once again all filled up with water. I've resolved to just say the hell with it and wait for the spring, which is probably what I should have done last time before I tried to put the first one in.

The kid's room is progressing nicely. Walls and wainscotting are all painted, all the footboards and wainscotting are up on the wall, and I'm about 1/3 of the way done with the chair rail. The tough part is definately turning out to be getting the damn corners to match with the moulding. I'm borrowing my father-in-law's plastic miter box, which as handy as it is, is allowing the cuts to be uneven. Between that and my inexperience, I'm ending up with some joints that look rather poor. So I'll be backfilling with a fair amount of wood puddy and hoping that things turn out well. In the end, I keep telling myself that it doesn't all have to look perfect because (1) nobody is perfect, (2) I'm doing this for the very first time, and (3) I'm going to care a lot more about playing with and getting to know my son than I am about the color, size, or shape of the room.

Work is turning up the pressure on me, and getting crazier. That's true for everyone here, but it turns out we have a major, unshakable design milestone coming up March 8th, and certainly the mood around here will become more and stressful as that date approaches. Oh yeah, and the kid is due that day as well. Fuckin' A! Of course my family comes first, but I have to balance the job out along with the arrival of my child so that I can afford to keep a roof over his new head. Why can't the March milestone be a little one, and why can't the stress ramp up later on, say in August? I guess it just goes to remind me that I have no control over what time has in store for me.

don't even know

Why is there water falling from the sky? No rain was supposed to occur at any time this week so that my back yard could dry out, and so I could plant my damn trees tomorrow. Why is it raining right now?

I think it's time I adopt an entirely new outlook on life, before I let all the stress that I carry along with me every day kill me. I think that from now on everything should be about cake. Finding a good cake, and enjoying eating it. Had a fine piece of carrot cake from the Nugget last night, and that just about fixed the day up right. But now it's raining, and I don't know what kind of cake drys out clay soil, so I find myself stuck, and paniced that I'll be in a world of hurt come early march if I don't seriously adjust my attitude.

WTF

See this is why I don't post regularly. I'm not exciting to read, mostly depressing and freaking out and stressed. Nobody is inspired or entertained by that.