Family Baby Shower

(Author's Note: This blog entry really should have been posted on Saturday, Jan 30th, right after Laura's baby shower ended. These are the thoughts that I was having at that time, so just assume that the date you see associated with this blog says 1/30/10.)

I honestly feel blessed and lucky. Too often I complain about my back yard or my work or some other nonsense. Today Laura had a baby shower to celebrate the coming of our first child, a boy whose name we honestly not yet determined. We probably had 30 people at our house, friends, family, people all gathered around to celebrate the coming of our kid. I was sitting on the couch much later that evening after everyone had left, and I was washed over with a feeling of wholeness, of hope, and even of love.

I know I'm getting really cheesy here, but in that moment it really sank in ... just how fortunate Laura and I are to have so many wonderful relationships. So many people who care about us, who care about our child to be, and who let us care about them. It it a truely amazing thing to have such good friends and family, and to be able to share our experiences with them all.

I sat there and soaked up the bliss, thinking to myself how it's such a damn shame that so many of life's nuances block the observation of this feeling. I bet that this feeling is always there, but that it's hard for someone like me to really know it and appreciate it when I am most often paying my attention towards so many other psychological debts.

Anyway, the point is just that I wanted to give thanks to everyone for coming. I know that most of them won't read this, but somehow, in some way I wanted to reflect the warmth and humility I felt in that moment back out to the world.

I can't believe I'm about to be a father!